Today

It wasn’t really today,
It was a more like a few days ago,
But it was at that time,
It was on that day that I found peace.

I had been asking why,
Why has God put me through such things?
But the question went that day,
And today, to where is God’s position in my life,
Is Christ above all others, above all things in my life?

The question from why to….
How can God shine through me?
And what can I do to be ready for that time.

I’ve been looking,
Seeking,
Praying,
For an answer to my question of why,
And just like job,
I am reminded that I do not need to ask why,
But rather,
Ask what is God’s position,
And does His place above everything,
Fit with the place that I give Him in my life.

I prayed for so long,
I struggled for so long,
But I am happy now,
I have a joy and peace,
Which would seem odd to others.

God has taken me,
God has shaken me,
God has answered me,
For that I am grateful.

I didn’t know it would take so long,
Perhaps it could have been sooner,
But now I know where I was wrong,
It seemed an odd way to stray, and yet now that my mind looks back it makes since.

God should always be first,
That was Paul’s struggle in Corinthians,
To put God first,
And to have a relationship truly is a challenge,
And for me someday in the future will be,
But it cannot be,
Until I am where God is,
Has called me to be.

So it comes down to this,
It comes down to full commitment to God,
Above all others.

It comes down to me serving,
Me being obedient to my call,
Me being willful to sacrifice anything for His glory.

It comes down to me preaching,
Teaching,
And sharing God’s Word.

I feel God preparing me for this,
Once I get to that point,
When I get to that defining point in my life,
If and when God chooses to tell me something,
As He will do in His time,
Then I will listen.

I yearn for the day where my Spirit is connected to God,
Where I am so full of Him,
That I will not be swayed by these dumb things,
Not that I will be perfect,
But that in time I will begin to become,
More in tune with God.

For I know that as I become in tune with God’s Will,
Life will be ever more joyful,
Life will be ever more abundant.

I yearn,
I groan,
My Spirit points to the day I will let go,

The day when I feel,
When I will hear,
The harmony and melody between me,
And my God.

I know I will never be perfectly in tune with God,
Not until we meet in Glory,
But Oh,
To b able to be a beautiful sound in God’s ear,
To make my life a more beautiful sound,
Than what it has been for so far,
For so long.

My life making a melodious sound,
An abundantly joyful offering of song.
An offering of sacrificial service,
Of sacrificial obedience.

Oh for the day that I learn what true perseverance is,
What true persecution is.

Oh for the day that I let down my guard,
For the day which we all as Christians will lay aside our Flesh,
And put on the Spirit.

Prepare me Lord,
Prepare me,
Break me Lord,
Break Me,
Build me up in Your Image Lord,
So that I may live in Your abundance,
So that Your name may be lifted high,
So that You will be glorified,
That You will be seen among the nations.

I do not say this for my names sake,
But Lord,
For Your names sake I speak,
For Your names sake I live,
For Your names sake I will speak,
For Your names sake I will live,
For your names sake I will lay aside who I am,

For Your names sake I will flee from the things of this world,
For Your names sake I will speak,
For You I will be who I am not,
But who You are calling me to be.

For I find myself,
In the midst of all things that are going on,
Growing ever closer to You,
Feeling You are preparing me for something soon.
Exactly what,
Exactly when I do not know,
But I know I need to be more concerned with preparation,
With gaining knowledge and wisdom,
Finding the abilities and talents,
Making use and sense of my Spiritual gifts,
To lift up and encourage the body,
To bring people into Your Kingdom.

For those who live in darkness,
Whether humanity lost,
Or those who know Christ,
They need to remember that there is a light has dawned,
And that light is Christ.

It is when we begin to realize Christ is our source,
Our lifeline,
We begin to have a peace that passes all understanding.


-By: Daniel Brockhan

Calling

I feel there is something in me,
I cannot express,
Something so drastically different,
From who I have been and am right now. 

It is a vision,
A picture of who I am,
And You are calling me to be. 

More than anytime in my life I seek You,
I seek to know the direction of Your Will.

The obstacles in front of me seem so many,
Seem to stop me in my tracks,
And throw me back into who I used to be.

I’m so tired of struggling,
So tired of pushing.

For every time I come to You,
Whether in worship,
Prayer,
Church,
Or my quiet time I feel this calling,
This urging.

I am so sick and tired of struggling between my flesh and spirit;
I’m so tired of being scared to let You have control.

You have showed me,
In visions,
In my minds eye,
Your Holy Spirit speaking through me,
Flowing through me.

Where would You have me serve?

Make my heart open and not hardened towards You Lord.
I love You so much,
And am finding myself,
Less convinced with the issue of being scared,
And more concerned with following You.

People need You Lord,
People need a wake up call in their life,
They need a call to action.

One Call to Action,
Such as I have found,
That consumes them with thoughts of pleasing You,
Of doing Your Will to bring glory to Your name.

My heart yearns to know You more and more,
To make You known,
To see Your Spirit take hold,
To transform others,
That they would become Your children,
And You would truly be their Father,
Their Light,
Their Redeemer.

-By: Daniel Brockhan