When It all Comes Crashing Down

When It all Comes Crashing Down

I cannot handle the stress
I cannot handle the anxiety and worry
I cannot handle the present and the future
I cannot handle the different roads
The different ways I may or may not go
The things I should or should not do

I cannot handle the confusion
The Dark cloud that seems to engulf me
I cannot handle going back and forth
I cannot handle lacking a state of peace
All I find are small times of consolation

Where is peace
Where is Joy
Where is hope
All I am finding is doubt
All I am finding is worry

All I want is to be done
To be finished with the worry
I feel like life is swallowing me
I feel like I am often left to fight this by myself

Being single means living on your own
Being single means having to take care of yourself
Being single means being alone
Being single means living in fear
It means coming home to a silent place
It means absence of voice
Absence of laughter in the day and in the night

It means no one to care for you in times of grief
It means no one to share joy with you in those times of success
It means making decisions alone
It means home is being by yourself

It means ministering to others by yourself
It means hoping you will be accepted though you are not attached
It means trusting God can use you
It means having faith others may see you
It means trying to connect with others
It means praying God will heal you
And having hope that others are praying the same

It means taking the burden alone
It means friendships are important
It means life takes work
It means taking the initiative for joy in life
Cause there is no one who will do it for you...

It means taking steps towards joy when you do not feel it
Taking steps towards God when you feel left behind
It means calling friends
Taking time to talk with them
It means playing games
Taking time to refresh yourself
It means not giving up
Taking another breathe and moving forward
It means perseverance
Taking a step of faith
It means trusting God has a plan
Taking me to that place
It means remembering God's faithfulness in the past
Taking me from the present into God's good future

When It All comes Crashing Down....

~ Daniel

Web Of Confusion

Hope

Hope

Christ give me Hope
You are Hope

Christ lend my Joy
You are Joy

Christ grant me Peace
You are Peace

Christ show me Love
You are Love

Christ ease my Suffering
You are Comfort

Christ give me Hope
You are Hope

~ Daniel

Two Dreams

I had two dreams
Perhaps the only two possibilities
Perhaps of my greatest joy
And another of my greatest fear.

How long will this last,
How long will it stay this way,
Since eventually it may change,
Since it seems like it must change.

Are we trying, are we willing,
Or do we hold back because of our fears,
Our insecurities,
Our confusion,
Our Doubt

Sometimes the possibilities seem like life or death.
Is there a happy middle,
Is there a balance and moderation,
Or have we just been kidding ourselves?

Our want and desire that cannot be controlled...
Controlled by the way that life eventually leads,
The one eventual way it will have to go,
One way or the other.

Is it worth trying,
Is it worth trusting,
Is it worth the awkwardness and tears,
For something that may be so short,
But also may last so long.

My questions abound,
My stomach churns
What is right
What is wrong
What is comfortable
What is easy
what is hard?

What will bring life?
What will bring death?
What will bring sorrow?
...And what will bring joy?

God have grace on me,
Jesus comfort me,
Holy Spirit guide my ways.
May the Trinity teach me the value of relationships...
And that love is the supremacy of all things...


~ Daniel

In Your Eyes

In Your Eyes

Eye Contact
Something wonderful
Something Unknown
Something Past
Something Now
Something Future
Something Profound

Sometimes during laughter
Sometimes just a quick glance
Something to see into your soul
Something hard to resist

Sometimes because humor connects
Other times in deep conversation

Sometimes thoughts of
What May Be
Might Be
Could Be
Possibly

Something of which I am Uncertain
Something which gives me Chills
And brings the Intensity of Heat all at once

Something that makes me feel More than myself
Something that makes me somehow feel Less

Are those eyes for me?
How do you view me with those eyes?
How do I view you with my own?

In the eyes I see your soul
Seeing those eyes connects me
Seeing those eyes makes me wonder...
Seeing your eyes is wonderful...
In them I see Beauty,
Other times Laughter
Maybe Sadness
Always Wonder

All of this I see
In Your Eyes

- By: Daniel Brockhan

The Journey Away

I once dreamt of swinging towards you,
And then of swinging away,
It was all a grand-nice-game…
Then the String I was swinging on broke,
And I was left swinging away.

I fell into the deepest waters,
I could see up from my watery grave,
The sunlight shinning, The broken string,
As I drifted, drifted… Still,
Deeper, Further… Away.

I had not rest, I had not peace,
In that deep-dark place,
I felt empty, Alone,
Still sinking, further… Away.

Is there hope? Is there joy?
For one so very long away,
One who is down-away-so deep,
Is there hope for them today?
Does the sunlight shine,
Can it still be seen,
When it is so far away?

If the lifeline is let go,
If it is lost,
Is there hope it can be regained?

What will happen to that old life,
Will I miss it anyway?
When I was swinging in the game,
Or in my watery grave.

What the future holds,
Is something new and vast,
Lest we return to sinking,
Lest we return…
And be defined by our past.

The hope is in the new,
Whatever it may be,
For the past did not last,
The past is the past,
I have not seen my end of days.

The journey is long,
The journey is deep,
It takes one a long way.
The lessons learned,
Helps one progress,
To move on and not be stained.

Life is moving, changing swiftly.
It is not one to sit and wait.
While we are worrying or thinking,
It may just come… and pass.

Life requires action,
As well as it requires thought.
And those who cease to act,
May be left to naught.

So take heed to what I tell you,
Take heed to what I say…
Life is to short to be hasty,
Take hold of action today.

- By: Daniel Brockhan