What if I told you the truth? What if I typed all of my truest feelings and deepest thoughts? What if I really let you in, behind the surface veil of my life? Would it make us connect deeper or would you run further away?
What if what I typed wasn’t all roses? What if what I posted wasn’t all about smiles and past-times, but about hardship and suffering? What if that suffering produced growth and was an integral part of my story? Would you still read? Would you still listen?
Would you read with me?
Would you walk with me?
Would you grief with me?
Would you rejoice with me?
Would you walk alongside me in this journey,
As I try my best to walk alongside you in yours?
Would you care about my thoughts regarding loneliness?
Would you listen to me express how I miss everyone and everything I ever knew?
Would you listen to me build up my life from a new foundation?
Would you read about how life can feel repetitive?
When you live alone, life can seem the same, week by week, day by day.
Silence can fill up your space.
You sometimes find yourself grasping at air.
Would you listen if I told you that despite all of these things,
This time has been my biggest growth and achievement personally and spiritually?
Would you like to hear how God has been changing my heart,
And mind since the day I moved,
That being alone has made me depend on God on a far deeper level?
Would you like to hear about the new riches of that relationship,
Discovery though hardship?
Would you care to read?
Would it pierce you?
If I bared my soul to you,
Would it matter?
Would it merely be another blog entry?
Would it merely be a form of entertainment for your eyes?
Would it merely be a form of isolation or bring connectedness?
Only time will tell…
When I bare my soul.
However, for now,
My musings are my own.
~ Daniel Brockhan
