Not Yet

Not Yet - 04/23/2009

I see your grace
I see your beauty
As you move to and fro

When you come around my pulse speeds up
My heart pumps twice as fast
As I try to maintain my composure
When you come around

Your voice is gentle as you speak
I hear whispers of angels
Voice of angels mixed with pure ocean water
Water rushing transparently through my soul

I am walking
Thinking about something
And I hear your voice calling my name
Where is your voice coming from
Searching frantically to find the corner
The corner where you voice meets my ear

Then I spot you,
Spot you and a rush comes over me
A feeling of joy springs forth
As my eyes meet your smile
And my smile meets your eyes

I am summoned forth by your gesture for me to come
Intense inner heat builds as I try to maintain face
This is where the knowing begins
Here in the midst of conversation

A smile
A laugh
The breeze slowly comes and goes

A look
A thought
Is this the beginning of something?
Who knows?

She walks with purity and honor
Respect and grace
She is modest and patient
Yet reciprocates my affection

I am at ease here
There is no pressure
No pressure to be who I am not
No pressure to pretend

I am comfortable here
Yet challenged
I am loved for who I am
Yet encouraged to seek change

I see her as beauty
And am seen as special and unique

I see her as wonder
And am seen as a long interesting read

We make one another curious
What makes the other tick?

We see one another
But the surface is only three feet deep
We begin to know one another
And the depths seem to have no end…

We hold hands in worship
As we lift our hands in praise
As we cry together in prayer

All of this we are
All of this we do

Not yet but hoping
Not yet but praying
Not yet but trusting
Not yet but waiting

Waiting to meet one another
Waiting to see one another
Waiting to know one another

Waiting to know love
Forgetting the past
Living in the present
And committing every day to the future

Not yet but who knows what may come
Not yet but putting doubts aside
Not yet but daily putting preconceived perceptions aside

Not yet
Not yet
But maybe soon...

"Wait for the LORD;
Be strong and take heart
And wait for the LORD." - Psalm 27:14

Your words rush in through my eyes
Striking to my soul
Trusting your provision in all things
Both in patience and perseverance

~ Daniel

Still Nothing

I Pray, I Try, Still Nothing
I Try to Trust, To Have Faith, Still Nothing

Why will You not allow me peace
Why are You leaving me in this Darkness
This Abyss with no hope

I do not understand

I do not want to doubt
But it boils up from inside of me
It burns and drowns my light spirit
And my happiness

What do you want from me?

Haven’t I Cried to you?
Cried on my knees,
Wept as a Child.

Still Nothing...