Tuesday, October 15, 2002

Scribbles of Faith

Fall 02 – Scribbles of Faith in History Class
I can’t stop thinking about You and Your goodness.
I try to concentrate but find my mind is consumed by You.
I try to think of my studies but thoughts of You consume my mind.
I just want to soak You up.
Lord give me the urge to let You out.

Let me take all this inside of me,
This consuming desire to be shown in my life,
Let me speak Your name.

Help me Lord for I yearn to gain knowledge but only to use it through Your Spirit.
I desire more and more of You.
I desire others to have more and more of you.
I want others to understand.
I want others to see, to feel you as I do.
I want others to understand how sweet you truly are.

That the things here are temporary,
But that you alone are forever,
That You alone are never changing.

I want others to have a true intimate relationship with You.
Give me the strength to stand up when I am called.
Give me the strength to be bold when Your Spirit moves me.

The world almost seems a haze,
It seems that so many seek to have a comfortable God,
A God that is thee but no true relationship exits.

If they only knew.
If could only get a glimpse,
Of what it is to be close to You.

If it could be…
Oh, I wonder what could happen.

-By: Daniel Brockhan

Wednesday, October 2, 2002

Consume Me Lord

Consume me Lord,
Break my life,
Break my heart for those who do not know You,
For those who live in darkness,
That I have not shown the light too,
Those whose only hope in life is death,
Whose only Joy is in the very sins that bring depression. 
Break me God to show them Lord,
Break me till I am humbly on my knees Lord.
Break me so that I am an empty vessel for you to use. 

I yearn to show others Your goodness Lord.
Help me to show them,
Help me to be a voice out of many for You Lord.
Give me the power through Your Spirit to let go,
To step out on faith,
To lean not on my own understanding,
But to stand firmly on You,
To stand by Your side. 
To realize that You are so awesome,
And that You are there,
You are here for me,
That You are with me.
Help me to remember You are with me,
Because I so soon forget,
I so soon get distracted Lord. 

God help me as I struggle.
Help my struggle not be against 
You but for You,
Help me to let it go,
In addition, follow Your Will,
And Your Way. 
Help me to let Your Holy Spirit fill me to the brim.

Help me to be full of You and not of this World.
For while I yearn to be in Your presence,
Part of me it seems yearns to be in myself,
To live for myself. 

And that is just the problem. 
The problem of all the little things we do,
That do not bring Glory to You,

The time we waste,
The time we throw away to worthless idols,
To worthless things,
Which have nothing to do with You. 
We spend so much time doing things,
That do not bring You glory,
And the other part of our life we learn about Your Glory,
About Your majesty,
We hear about how we are to live for You,
We see in Scripture how people were sold out to You,
And yet we are not! 

Why does it not break us? 

Why does it not move us to know,
That we are doing the very things,
Which are contrary to Your Will, 
The very things,
Which You want us to do,
We do halfway,
We stand in a comfortable position,
We stand where we think we are good,
Where people can assume we are Christians,
And yet no true fruit,
No real outpouring of the Holy Spirit is shown,
Nor does it seem to be felt. 

Why is this? 
Why do we hold back? 

Why do we linger in the shadows,
Or in that place of light and dark,
With one foot in the TRUTH,
And one foot out of the TRUTH. 
God consume us,
Slap us with Your Spirit. 
Let Your Spirit burst forth through me,
Let it burst through us all.

Change us Lord,
Transform us in to an image of You.
Lord may we let it ALL go,
May we lay ourselves before Your feet,

May we not just act as if You are inside,
But let it be real in our life.
Let it be for us all Lord.
Consume our hearts,
Consume our minds,
Consume our souls,
Our very inner being.

God I crave You.
And I know in my heart,
That there are others who crave You. 
We long to be fully indwelt,
To be fully open to You,
To not see our plans,
To not see our future,
To not see our opinions,
Or ideas but to sacrifice them,
To give them up for you,
To lay them at Your feet,
To die for self so that we will find a new,
A sweeter self in You,
That we would be transformed through You,
So, 
Those others will be transformed as well!
That Your Spirit would move Lord,
That we would feel it,
That it would be our guide,
And counselor,
That our hearts,
Ears,
And eyes would be open to You.
Help us Lord for we are far from You,
We are far from Your presence.
So many of us are blind to our sins,
To the sinful disobedient life we live.

Lord break us all,
Knock us out with Your Spirit God,
This is what we need,
This is how it should be Lord.
Not that we are holier or righteous than another,
But that You are Holier,
And Righteous,

That the full extent of every good,
And perfect gift does truly come from You,
That Your Spirit,
That a close,
Intimate,
And personal relationship with You brings out these qualities,
Not only in our self,
But also in those who we tough through Your Spirit.

When will we let go?
When will we stand up?

When will we decide that we don’t have to live this way,
That we no longer have to live trapped,
We don’t have to live in a box because Your Son has set us free,
With his blood our sins are cleansed,
Through his death we are healed.
We no longer have to be chained down by this world because we are free,
We don’t belong here accept for a short time,
Our home isn’t here,
Our home is in heaven,
With God as our Light,
And Jesus as our Lamp.
We are free but we trap ourselves inside of self,
But when God moves his Spirit burst through self,
It flows through and shows Gods awesome presence,
Through something that is not awesome. 
Everything must,
And needs to be laid down,
Our lives must change,
Must be transformed,
Or the Spirit will never be let loose.
We must lay it all down,
And be led by the Spirit or God will never move as He could.
If we do not stand up,
How many people might miss,
A glimpse of God’s Spirit,
But if we stand,
If we speak,
Shout of Jesus,
Then,
And only then will God’s Spirit break forth,
And move!

-By: Daniel Brockhan