Rainy Day
Well, its cloudy and raining - so when I usually am thinking about going out maybe and it rains... well, I stay in. Sometimes rain is annoying, especially when you do not want to get wet; however, there are times when I am sitting in the quiet of my room and I hear the rain and it brings a peace to me. It makes me feel as if I am once again at home on my bed. I am about 10 years old and taking a nap (or just sitting and watching), sometimes it is raining and sometimes it is sunny when I have these intense feelings and longings for home, for a place where I feel I am accepted, for a place where I know I will not have to go or move in a few months or years. I long for that feeling of home again. I long to keep the peace of that time, of those memories... but then I am jolted back into reality, into making a life for myself and living in random places and meeting random people. I am glad for the friendships I have but none of them feel permanent; none of them ,many times, feel as if they will last beyond a few years. In these times I wish for the past, for its feelings of safety and comfort; and find only in my present feelings of discomfort, fear, and fleetingness.
What does God have for me next? I have no idea. I try to be comfortable where I am abut I just cannot seem to be at ease, to be at peace. Am i supposed to be?... Or is this time a time for me to trust and have faith God, to grow and stretch me to depend on God? I do not know all the answers and I never claim to know. I know God has a plan (which I do feel I am on for now), I just hope that somewhere in my future is something permanent, something comfortable, something that just feels like home - and not like I am some wondering traveler.
Your Peace
I long for your peace God,
show me your peace.
I long for your comfort Lord,
please give me comfort.
I long to feel at home,
let me feel at home in You.
I long to feel at ease,
heal me from my stress.
I long to be more passionate,
help me find boldness and courage.
I long to be ever-closer to You,
give me the strength to persevere.
-A-men
~ Daniel
Well, its cloudy and raining - so when I usually am thinking about going out maybe and it rains... well, I stay in. Sometimes rain is annoying, especially when you do not want to get wet; however, there are times when I am sitting in the quiet of my room and I hear the rain and it brings a peace to me. It makes me feel as if I am once again at home on my bed. I am about 10 years old and taking a nap (or just sitting and watching), sometimes it is raining and sometimes it is sunny when I have these intense feelings and longings for home, for a place where I feel I am accepted, for a place where I know I will not have to go or move in a few months or years. I long for that feeling of home again. I long to keep the peace of that time, of those memories... but then I am jolted back into reality, into making a life for myself and living in random places and meeting random people. I am glad for the friendships I have but none of them feel permanent; none of them ,many times, feel as if they will last beyond a few years. In these times I wish for the past, for its feelings of safety and comfort; and find only in my present feelings of discomfort, fear, and fleetingness.
What does God have for me next? I have no idea. I try to be comfortable where I am abut I just cannot seem to be at ease, to be at peace. Am i supposed to be?... Or is this time a time for me to trust and have faith God, to grow and stretch me to depend on God? I do not know all the answers and I never claim to know. I know God has a plan (which I do feel I am on for now), I just hope that somewhere in my future is something permanent, something comfortable, something that just feels like home - and not like I am some wondering traveler.
Your Peace
I long for your peace God,
show me your peace.
I long for your comfort Lord,
please give me comfort.
I long to feel at home,
let me feel at home in You.
I long to feel at ease,
heal me from my stress.
I long to be more passionate,
help me find boldness and courage.
I long to be ever-closer to You,
give me the strength to persevere.
-A-men
~ Daniel
