Scribbles of Faith

Fall 02 – Scribbles of Faith in History Class

I can’t stop thinking about You and Your goodness.
I try to concentrate but find my mind is consumed by You.
I try to think of my studies but thoughts of You consume my mind.
I just want to soak You up.
Lord give me the urge to let You out.

Let me take all this inside of me,
This consuming desire to be shown in my life,
Let me speak Your name.

Help me Lord for I yearn to gain knowledge but only to use it through Your Spirit.
I desire more and more of You.
I desire others to have more and more of you.
I want others to understand.
I want others to see, to feel you as I do.
I want others to understand how sweet you truly are.

That the things here are temporary,
But that you alone are forever,
That You alone are never changing.

I want others to have a true intimate relationship with You.
Give me the strength to stand up when I am called.
Give me the strength to be bold when Your Spirit moves me.

The world almost seems a haze,
It seems that so many seek to have a comfortable God,
A God that is thee but no true relationship exits.

If they only knew.
If could only get a glimpse,
Of what it is to be close to You.

If it could be…
Oh, I wonder what could happen.

-By: Daniel Brockhan

Consume Me Lord

Consume me Lord,
Break my life,
Break my heart for those who do not know You,
For those who live in darkness,
That I have not shown the light too,
Those whose only hope in life is death,
Whose only Joy is in the very sins that bring depression. 
Break me God to show them Lord,
Break me till I am humbly on my knees Lord.
Break me so that I am an empty vessel for you to use. 

I yearn to show others Your goodness Lord.
Help me to show them,
Help me to be a voice out of many for You Lord.
Give me the power through Your Spirit to let go,
To step out on faith,
To lean not on my own understanding,
But to stand firmly on You,
To stand by Your side. 
To realize that You are so awesome,
And that You are there,
You are here for me,
That You are with me.
Help me to remember You are with me,
Because I so soon forget,
I so soon get distracted Lord. 

God help me as I struggle.
Help my struggle not be against 
You but for You,
Help me to let it go,
In addition, follow Your Will,
And Your Way. 
Help me to let Your Holy Spirit fill me to the brim.

Help me to be full of You and not of this World.
For while I yearn to be in Your presence,
Part of me it seems yearns to be in myself,
To live for myself. 

And that is just the problem. 
The problem of all the little things we do,
That do not bring Glory to You,

The time we waste,
The time we throw away to worthless idols,
To worthless things,
Which have nothing to do with You. 
We spend so much time doing things,
That do not bring You glory,
And the other part of our life we learn about Your Glory,
About Your majesty,
We hear about how we are to live for You,
We see in Scripture how people were sold out to You,
And yet we are not! 

Why does it not break us? 

Why does it not move us to know,
That we are doing the very things,
Which are contrary to Your Will, 
The very things,
Which You want us to do,
We do halfway,
We stand in a comfortable position,
We stand where we think we are good,
Where people can assume we are Christians,
And yet no true fruit,
No real outpouring of the Holy Spirit is shown,
Nor does it seem to be felt. 

Why is this? 
Why do we hold back? 

Why do we linger in the shadows,
Or in that place of light and dark,
With one foot in the TRUTH,
And one foot out of the TRUTH. 
God consume us,
Slap us with Your Spirit. 
Let Your Spirit burst forth through me,
Let it burst through us all.

Change us Lord,
Transform us in to an image of You.
Lord may we let it ALL go,
May we lay ourselves before Your feet,

May we not just act as if You are inside,
But let it be real in our life.
Let it be for us all Lord.
Consume our hearts,
Consume our minds,
Consume our souls,
Our very inner being.

God I crave You.
And I know in my heart,
That there are others who crave You. 
We long to be fully indwelt,
To be fully open to You,
To not see our plans,
To not see our future,
To not see our opinions,
Or ideas but to sacrifice them,
To give them up for you,
To lay them at Your feet,
To die for self so that we will find a new,
A sweeter self in You,
That we would be transformed through You,
So, 
Those others will be transformed as well!
That Your Spirit would move Lord,
That we would feel it,
That it would be our guide,
And counselor,
That our hearts,
Ears,
And eyes would be open to You.
Help us Lord for we are far from You,
We are far from Your presence.
So many of us are blind to our sins,
To the sinful disobedient life we live.

Lord break us all,
Knock us out with Your Spirit God,
This is what we need,
This is how it should be Lord.
Not that we are holier or righteous than another,
But that You are Holier,
And Righteous,

That the full extent of every good,
And perfect gift does truly come from You,
That Your Spirit,
That a close,
Intimate,
And personal relationship with You brings out these qualities,
Not only in our self,
But also in those who we tough through Your Spirit.

When will we let go?
When will we stand up?

When will we decide that we don’t have to live this way,
That we no longer have to live trapped,
We don’t have to live in a box because Your Son has set us free,
With his blood our sins are cleansed,
Through his death we are healed.
We no longer have to be chained down by this world because we are free,
We don’t belong here accept for a short time,
Our home isn’t here,
Our home is in heaven,
With God as our Light,
And Jesus as our Lamp.
We are free but we trap ourselves inside of self,
But when God moves his Spirit burst through self,
It flows through and shows Gods awesome presence,
Through something that is not awesome. 
Everything must,
And needs to be laid down,
Our lives must change,
Must be transformed,
Or the Spirit will never be let loose.
We must lay it all down,
And be led by the Spirit or God will never move as He could.
If we do not stand up,
How many people might miss,
A glimpse of God’s Spirit,
But if we stand,
If we speak,
Shout of Jesus,
Then,
And only then will God’s Spirit break forth,
And move!

-By: Daniel Brockhan

These Three Things: Part Two

Three things I have prayed for,
And three things God has now given me a peace about.
Now that I am getting over these three I see two more,
But perhaps there are hundreds,
Even thousands more.
Perhaps there are so many beyond I can’t even see them yet. 
Yes,
There are thousands,
Perhaps millions of things,
Which I will pray God will help me through.

He will guide me through them,
I will make it through or over each hurdle,
I will persevere to get the prize,
Yet I do not do this for myself,
Through the self which God took and made self-less,
Whom He gave new life,
He gave new hope,
That He gave himself to be in an intimate relationship with.

So many things to happen down the road,
Down the path,
Through this race of life…
Many of these things we have no glimpse of,
These we need not to worry about,
But to lay our future at the feet of Him,
Who already controls not only our present but our future.
We lay it down before God,
Because we know in our hearts,
That life is so much sweeter under,
And in the hands of God,
Who is Ultimate Love,
Ultimate Peace,
And Ultimate Hope.

It is only through God will our life be joyful,
Only when we lay our lives,
Our choices,
Our desires,
And wants before Him,
Are we complete through Him,
And His Son,
Jesus Christ?

Only then,
In that humble place,
Will we break through our self,
Let the Holy Spirit take control,
And the Joy of Christ,
Which we have hidden for so long inside,
Will burst forth. 

Only then,
In that place will brokenness,
Will a revival of self,
Our City,
Our State,
Our Country,
And World begin to happen. 

If we would just lay them down,
If we would only lay every aspect of our life,
And thoughts before God then,
And only then will God truly be out God,
Then we will see the hand of God,
As never before in not only our own life,
But see Gods touch on those around us. 

If all is given then all is taken care of,
Who better to take care of every aspect?
And detail of our life,
Then the very one who gave us our life during the beginning. 
Who better than God?
Who better than our Creator?
Who better than the Bringer of ALL Life,
And the Savior of souls?
Who?
I ask Who?

-By: Daniel Brockhan

These Three Things: Part One

I feel as if I am in the midst of a battle,
A spiritual battle within myself.
I have come up to three walls,
Three things which God has laid on my heart to do,
To pray about and begin.
These three things I have prayed about,
And have earnestly sought God’s Will in all of them.
God has convicted me of all three,
And is teaching me to be bold,
Not to cower,
But to strive on,
To persevere through the distractions,
In this world that block me,
Even my own flesh,
My own self,
My fear,
Me doubt,
The questions that come up inside of me.
I know that I can only go through,
And do these three things by relying of God,
And nobody else.

I know my home is not this world,
And yet still these three things seem to block my way.

All have to do with my inner man,
All have to do with the old verses new,
The Flesh verses the Spirit.
For God is pounding on my heart to do His Will,
I know precisely what to do,
But my service is diffused or vanishes as soon as life,
As soon as distractions come along.

Why do I not let it all go?
Why do I even care what others think because,
God alone,
You alone matter.
I want,
Need,
And long to let it all go.
I see how far I have come,
And yet I cannot ignore,
These three things before me. 

I cannot see what is on the other side,
And know that I will only find out,
After I conquer these with You help alone. 

My soul grieves for why I keep You in a Box….
For You have placed these three things before me,
I know through the Spirit,
That You alone matter more than anything else. 

I know that if You have placed these before me,
That I needed to follow through,
That I need to keep my mind on You.
That I will speak when speak is needed,
That I am silent when silence is needed. 
That I would seek You,
And seek to follow Your will in All,
In one-hundred percent of my life,
That I would live in Your presence,
Through Your Holy Spirit. 

I pray that I will follow You,
That I would lay these three things down before Your feet…
That I would let so and not care about pleasing another buy You. 
For You alone are King,
You alone are God,
If I do anything,
That does not glorify You,
Then I loose the whole purpose for my life.
Help me,
Help us ALL!

-By: Daniel Brockhan