Two Dreams

I had two dreams
Perhaps the only two possibilities
Perhaps of my greatest joy
And another of my greatest fear.

How long will this last,
How long will it stay this way,
Since eventually it may change,
Since it seems like it must change.

Are we trying, are we willing,
Or do we hold back because of our fears,
Our insecurities,
Our confusion,
Our Doubt

Sometimes the possibilities seem like life or death.
Is there a happy middle,
Is there a balance and moderation,
Or have we just been kidding ourselves?

Our want and desire that cannot be controlled...
Controlled by the way that life eventually leads,
The one eventual way it will have to go,
One way or the other.

Is it worth trying,
Is it worth trusting,
Is it worth the awkwardness and tears,
For something that may be so short,
But also may last so long.

My questions abound,
My stomach churns
What is right
What is wrong
What is comfortable
What is easy
what is hard?

What will bring life?
What will bring death?
What will bring sorrow?
...And what will bring joy?

God have grace on me,
Jesus comfort me,
Holy Spirit guide my ways.
May the Trinity teach me the value of relationships...
And that love is the supremacy of all things...


~ Daniel