Sobbing Christian

His hands covered his sobbing-wet face. His cries echoed in his apartment and inside the very foundations of his soul. He threw his devotional book across the room, crying out to God. Why did things have to be so hard? Why did they have to be so difficult? He was always taught the answers were found in the scriptures but no one told him life, real life, would be so hard, so confusing. He desired simply to follow his dreams, to use his talents, to be the person he believed he was called to be... yet there was this void, this empty space now; the time between that calling and that reality. It was here where he must face the fact that nothing comes easy, including following the Creator.

As his sobs began to subside he looked and saw the book and pen on the floor, the light from the bathroom shining on both of them. The pages were shuffled and worn, they were scattered and folded. It was not neat. Silence filled the room, so much silence. Silence makes us always face our self. Silence makes us listen to God. Silence forces us into the places we would rather not be...

With the coldness from his tears still fresh on his face, he wiped away the wetness, picked up the pen and the book. The crying, the anger... it all changes nothing… but sometimes helps. It helps us move forward but also helps us in small bits to understand that we are not in control. God is in control. We are confused about a great many things but God is not confused. What we lack is the sight of God, yet if we had the answers... Well, where would be the searching? Where would be faith and trust? Where would be the journey if we went from the starting line directly to the finish? How would we ever help others if we never met with God to learn how to help them and grow ourselves?

He had hope, not in his present situation, but he had hope in the future situation, the one where God will wipe away his last tear, along with all others. He found hope in knowing that one day all his confusion would be wiped clean and clarity would ensue. He had hope that Christ had a good future for him, getting there was not going to be easy, but it was going to be worth it.. And in all things, bad times or good, Christ still be glorified.

~ Daniel

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